Books that will make you feel awesome

I love reading. I love reading all different topics and genres of books. Recently, I have been really into motivational books that have just made me feel awesome. These “self help” books are becoming more and more popular especially as … Continue reading

It’s not OK right now (and that’s OK)

I know- it’s been awhile since I blogged. Honestly, I have been trying to stay so busy that I don’t even have moments to myself. I am trying to keep busy so I don’t start missing my husband.

My husband joined the United States Army. It feels so strange typing that. I never thought I would be in this position. I remember- throughout my entire life- I would see as men and women left their spouses for deployment and I would think ‘Oh my gosh. I could never ever do that. I couldn’t be away from my husband for that long.’ And now, I am going to be one of those women. It’s weird.

It seems like my personal mantra the past few weeks has been “It’s all okay.” That’s what my friends keep telling me, what my family keeps reminding me, and what I am constantly telling myself. It’s all okay. Everything will be fine.

The other day I was talking to a woman who’s husband had been in the military for several years. I told her how I was feeling about everything and I ended my rambling sentence with my statement of “But, it’s all okay.” This woman looked at me as if she was trying to decide if she should say what she was thinking. “I don’t want you to take this the wrong way or let this freak you out- but, it’s not okay. It’s going to be really hard and you’re probably going to cry a lot. He’s your husband and he is going to be gone for months at a time. It’s okay if something like that makes you sad.”
This has been the most helpful thing anyone has said to me about my husband joining the Army.
Of course I won’t be fine. The love of my life is leaving. I won’t be able to see him and I will barely be able to talk to him. It’s going to suck. It’s probably going to be the worst thing I have ever had to deal with. And that’s fine. It’s okay for me to be sad about this. It’s okay if I don’t have it all together. It’s okay if I can’t handle it right now. I’m still going to work, I’m still going to hang out with my friends, I’m still going to visit my family, and I’m still going to continue living my life and being as happy as possible.
It’s not gonna be okay right now and that’s okay. Because some days will be harder than others. Some days all I’m going to eat is ice cream. Some days will be great and I will go on drives and on hikes an do whatever I want to do.
It’s not gonna be okay right now and that’s okay. Because I am allowed to have feelings and emotions. I don’t have to be happy all the time. If I need to cry, I’m going to cry and then move on with my day.
It’s not gonna be okay right now and that’s okay. Because I know this isn’t going to last forever. I know that I love my husband more than anything and he loves me. I know that he wants to help our country and help others
One of my favorite quotes is something along the lines of “Everything will be alright in the end and if it’s not alright, then it’s not the end.” I’m okay with not being okay sometimes because I know it won’t always be hard and the days won’t always be bad. But, in the end, it will be great.
It won’t always be okay. And that’s fine with me. Because it will be someday.
fine.

Wednesday Inspiration

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Do you have those days (or weeks or months) where it just seems like your entire world is unraveling? That everything you have worked so hard to build is being torn down? Maybe I am being a little dramatic. It’s just- recently I was given news that is changing my entire life. Before you get too excited- or nervous- I’m not pregnant. So, don’t worry about that.

Anyway, here I am, having freak outs every single day because my life is changing majorly. Then, I thought of something:

I CAN DO IT

I know that it doesn’t seem like that hard of a concept to realize. But, when you are right in the middle of a hard time, it can be hard to remember that you can come out of it.

Whenever you are having one of those days (or weeks or months) when it feels like it’s too hard and it will never end- just remember: You CAN do it! You can climb that mountain, you can walk that tightrope over the precipice, and you can get through anything! Even better- you WILL get through it.

Earth Day : Am I Making A Difference?

I have been asking myself this a lot. “Am I making a difference?” “Does what I do matter?”.
Awhile ago, I noticed that I only used 1 paper towel to dry my hands after washing them. I do not know when I started doing this but I became conscience of the fact that I was doing it a few years ago. However, I did not really start wondering if I was actually making a difference until several months ago. Does it really matter if I am only using 1 paper towel? Am I really helping anything? I am just one person- I don’t think I can make a difference.
Then I went to school one day and my educator showed me this video…

So, I decided to crunch the numbers for my personally. Let’s say I wash my hands and use paper towels at work/school 5 times a day/5 days per week. If I were using 5 paper towels every time,in one week I would use 125 paper towels. That is 6,500 paper towels per year! (are you following this math?) Compare that to using 1 paper towel 5 times per day- 5 days per week. 25 per week and 1,300 per year! I am saving 5,200 paper towels every year! That is not even including going out to restaurants, or concerts, or anywhere else- just work.
I challenge you to do this for other things you do: do you pick up one soda can a week and drop it in a recycle bin? Well, you are recycling 52 cans a year! That is awesome! Do you go to the coffee shop every day before work and use a reusable cup? You are saving 260 cups a year! Seriously, anything you do can help- sometimes we just do not realize that every little thing can make a big difference.

the smell of books and perfect eyeliner

Last week was a really long, frustrating week. So, on Saturday night, I decided to take a hot bubble bath and read a book (yes- I am one of those people and it was sooo relaxing). Currently, I am reading Mansfield Park by Jane Austen so I grabbed that book and got into my luxurious tub. I was so happy! And then for some reason I decided to bring that book right up to my face and just take in how perfect this moment was. While I was doing this- and being the weirdest person in the world- I was thinking how much I love the smell of books. It’s just one of those small things that puts a smile on your face, you know?

This made me think how many other little things there are in the world that seem like such big things to us:

When you get you winged eyeliner just perfect

Squishing your toes into wet sand on the beach

Really soft blankets

A cup of hot chocolate

Laughing with your best friend

When the cookies you bake turn out delicious

When the cookies you bake suck and you can just laugh it off

Crossing things off your to-do list

Seriously, I could go on forever. Life is so full of these little moments that help us get through the harder times- the little things that make the big difference. After thinking about all this, I decided to add something else to my list of 2016 Goals:

Remember all the good moments, happy accidents, small victories, and the little things that get messed up but it works out anyway. Remember how wonderful books smell and how great it feels when you do your eyeliner perfectly.